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Well, I skated all day with billy.. what fun =) then I broke up with piffy. She's not a very happy person, and I guess we both just wanted different things in a relationship. Anyway, im pretty messed up right now that I screwed up another relationship, so woop de fucking doo... I guess I'll go write some poetry...

You know pif.. I guess I should have said this to earlier today, and if you dont see it by this friday then I will-
What are you so afraid of? Dont worry about getting hurt, your just hurting me! Dont just lay around when your sick, or feel down or depressed because you see something you dont like. Go out and change it! You say you dont love me, and that you cant fake an emotion- I love you there I said it, again. are you satisified? You dont have to love me back, but it hurts me that you dont. Im not going to cheat on you, screw you over or lie to you. Im afraid to, but whatever happens at least I'll know I gave it all I had.
So here comes another day, then another week and a month and a year. Go out and try new things, dont fear change. If your always worried about bad things happening then nothing good can happen.

Ahhh, guys im not good at this relationship stuff. Im really not. Pif is the greatest, but she just confuses me so damn bad sometimes =/.... I dont think she really believes in love. She says I lie to her alot, but I dont think I do. I dont really know who I am anymore, what im for or against. Im in a time of rapid change in my life. anyway I have to go.. later

I have been writing alot lately.. Im still with pif, and we have had a couple of problems the last couple days. buy everything has been fixed, and I have got over a couple of my own issues.
-The Revolutionary and the patriots

I raise my fist
Your filled with pride
I fight the evil
You praise those who have died
I say genocide
You say Progress
I say an end to ALL THIS
you say "America"

F-Patriots-
Dont fly that flag
No not for me
'Cause your a moron
A sexist rascist homophobe
You breed the hate
that encircles the globe

Time for another day of school, I really need to start focusing more in my classes. Anyway, Last night I made a total jackass of myself on the phone with piffy... I kept interupting whenever she spoke and then I quit talking all together for a little while because I had to write for mr.short.... Bye guys I g2g get gready

Well, time for ANOTHER day of school =/. I have to get a bunch of work made up, and didnt get ANY of my homework done last night. But I have a excuse! I went to bristol for my eye doctor person thing, and then talked to pif's for about a hour and a half. ... anyway I g2g get ready

Hey guys, I really didnt feel like typing today but I did anyway :)
Not much happened for the first part of the school day, but I did exchange a couple words with kelsey. She just got further black listed by making negative comments about Pif's. Im going to stay at either Andrews or Billys(Hopefully billys, so we can play ps2 all night) then go see Pif's on saturday, from one of there houses! Bad thing though, is she's grounded and has practice so she cant go to youth group =/, I was really looking forward to seeing her to. But, I'll manage =). Has anyone else noticed she has got me into =)'s instead of :)'s? I like =) =( better than :) :( .. Weird eh? I didnt get to talk to her to long either, since she had to leave at around 8 and my aunt knocked me off the comp, then another aunt three wayed and I got kicked off the phone. Would everybody, do me a favor and tell Pif's she doesnt sound like a red neck?
On another note, Im on a new diet wich I deemed in mock of the Atkins diet plan "The Border Line Annorexia Plan". Im going to run 1 mile or walk 5 miles a day and have only 1 salad a day and all the water I want. Since, Im now talking to someone as beatiful as Pif's I feel really insecure about my appearence (more so than I used to) since she looks so much better than me. I have to cut it short and go, but Pif's is the greatest! =)

*hurrah*....*rolls eyes*..... My grandparents just got home and decided to start yelling, and ewww... it pisses me off so bad......... I'll not get into that, because alot of what goes on when I get pissed is very private, even for you guys... anyways, I spent most of yesterday talking to piffy and talked to her on and off today.. Im to *blegh* everything right now to get into details but, I may have finally found someone im compitable with :)

wooo....... Survey time!

Basics
Name:: Jordan
Age:: 14
Height:: around 6 foot
Hair Color:: black/brown
Eye Color:: green

School Life
What's your school's mascot?: satan
School color(s)?: blue and white
G.P.A.?: no idea
Who is your favorite teacher?: Mr.Burns
What do they teach?: Band
Is this your favorite class?: I dont learn anything, but yeah

Internet
Do you use any instant messengers?: yes
If so, which ones?: icq and msn
About how many hours a day do you spend online?: depends?
Do you have a digital camera?: no
If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: Yeah
Music
Do you play any instruments?: yes
If so, what one(s)?: flute,Guitar
3 Favorite Genres Of Music:: punk, emo
3 Favorite Bands:: anti-flag, rise against,mest
Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: no
What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: 30 bucks
What is the least you've ever spent?: 0$
Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: no
Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: Mest
Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?: no

Word Association
Blue:: and white
Camera:: picture
Pretty:: im not
Pants:: baggys
Music:: Mind
God:: Satan
Sweater:: Black
Live Journal:: yes
MTV:: DIE

Labels:
Do you think labels are dumb?:yes
Why or why not?: they just are
What do people label you as?:No
How/Why did you get this label?:Im unique so I dont get a
label.. poor me.. wait.. Im piffys loser :)

Which Is Worse?
Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: emotional
Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: Blink-182
Being Deaf/Being Blind?: deaf
Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: rushing
Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?: I'll have to go with the arm

Love
Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: yes
Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: no
Are you romantic?: sometimes?
Are you in a relationship now?: ?
If so, for how long?: ?
If not, how long have you been single?: 10 months

Ranomosity
War: Good or Bad?: bad
What do you think of designer labels?: worthless
Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: paris
What is it with guys and cars?: VROOM
Do you sing?: yeah
If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?: ?
Kiss or hug?: Depends on who it is.. but I like to cuddle with that special someone
What color is your room?: its that fake wood stuff
How old is your mom?: 34
Black and white or color photos?: Color
Who cuts your hair?: Me..
What color is your toothbrush?: green
What color is your hair brush?: blue
What kind of hair products do you use?: Hair Gel Hair Spray
Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?: Both are #@$#$$$$%^&$%^&^%&
Are you sexy?: No
What color to people tells you looks nice on you?: they dont
What color do you think looks nice on you?: i dont know..
Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?:clothes
Who do you sit with at lunch? Nathan,Billy,Ashley,Brandi,Laraun,Josh,Andrew
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: no
Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: Piffy =) everything about her is beatiful :)
What is the website for one of your favorite bands?: www.anti-flag.net
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: it doesnt matter =)
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: yeah
Who was the last person you hung out with?: kathy at the game friday
What did you and that person do?: walked around and talked
Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?: sometimes
Are you a people-pleaser?: i dont think so
Do you dye your hair regularly?: sometimes, but not often
What about your eyebrows?: no
Do you wear makeup?: no
If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?: no
Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: unedited
Can you beatbox?: no
Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?: no

Piffy gave me the inspiration for this peacr of art work ( Im not calling her a poser, but we discussed prepackaged conformity last night ):P---

J	Joyous
O	Outrageous
R	Rare
D	Delicate
A	Appealing
N	Nerdy

Name / Username:

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Hey everybody.. nothing to much new... I passed all but 1 class for the grading period (6 weeks)I (finally) got piffys icq... sort of, shes the one who tracked me down.. anyway we have alot in common so far, and im talking to her as I type.. so more later
no new poems or songs, sorry guys :(

Open Your Eyes

Let the light

Let it flood in.

See this world
Take it all in.

Forgive these
people
for there greed
for there hate

let the tears fall, as I watch the end
why did these things
why did they even begin?



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Blegh, im starting to doubt I'll ever find a girl(im not already "friends"with ) in our entire damn town whos not a complete slut
Love sucks so bad... mainly because theres not a single girl I have anything in common with except laraun, and shes like my best friend... but she introduced me to piffy, soon as I get her icq or phone # I'll see where things go from there..

Hmmm... Heres sum new poems and songs..
1-2-3
1-wa wa one-2-3
GO!!


times must change
lifes must rearrange
the end will come
the cycle
Amazon to babalyon

Bombs will fall
Innocents DIe
Oil and greed
Nationilists with pride

F--k your nation
F--k your nation
F--k your nation

F--k you

The global economy
is more important than a 4 year olds starving
mother.
The KKK murdered his Jewish brother.

F--k your nation
F--k your nation
F--k your nation

****** (7:06 PM) :
lol
That P.E.T.A Guy (7:09 PM) :
ok.. hurrah
That P.E.T.A Guy (7:10 PM) :
theres LOTS of conversation going on
That P.E.T.A Guy (7:10 PM) :
eh?
***** (7:10 PM) :
oh yeah...
***** (7:10 PM) :
im updatin my live journal
That P.E.T.A Guy (7:10 PM) :
cool.. im going to start mine
*** (7:11 PM) :
awesome there ******

lol, well I will not take long to figure out who wrote the above.. anyway Im bored so I copy pasted a conversation! WEEEEEEE... Im that BE-Rave

Im getting ready for school, and im tired as F**k cause I was on the phone all of last night... and now I have to do a bunch of homework to.. S**T